Are You Okay? SRK Mental Health Thread

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  • nikeSBstunna89nikeSBstunna89 WOLVES Joined: Posts: 1,493
    I am coming to the realization that I have some major issues. To start it off, I have major problems with coping with life. Whenever something goes wrong I run to whatever substance I can find to make me feel better. I've been sober for the past 2 months but it has been very difficult. Even now all i want to do is smoke, drink, and listen to some music and zone out. The only thing stopping me is knowing that I will feel so shitty the day after when my issues resurface.

    Second, I don't think I've ever really been happy being by myself. I've had a few relationships where I put my all into it and when shit goes downhill, my sense of belonging and usefulness goes right out the door with that person. I don't have that many friends so maybe that plays a factor as well. Been single for going on a month now and I'm still struggling to find myself and gain some usefulness outside of someone else.

    Lastly, I can have some pretty bad mood swings at times. One minute I will be talkative and funny as shit but the next minute i'll have this fuck you look on my face and it tends to scare people away sometimes. I've been trying to work on it whenever I sense it happening but sometimes it just feels like second nature.

    I know I should probably go speak to someone but I'm very reluctant to tell someone that I dont know all of my issues. I just feel like this person doesnt know shit about me I'm just another dollar sign to them. I usually just talk to my mother about them but shes at the point where all she can do is listen because she cant really give me any advice. The main thing that keeps me back from seeking pro help is that I don't want to feel like a crazy person. Something keeps telling me that I can get a grip on life if I can just give it some time and take things a day at a time.

    Any insight would be greatly appreciated.
  • blankspacesblankspaces Pull Over Stupid Joined: Posts: 155 ✭✭✭✭✭ OG
    people with mental problems are you trump supporters? just asking
  • CHIEFxIRONLUNGCHIEFxIRONLUNG FLOORPUNCH_NJHC Joined: Posts: 591
    ANXIETY HAMMER
    its not fine, but at least it makes sense. your a fucking retard if you cant even grasp that. only a retard would die for people they dont even know to increase these peoples bank accounts. now why dont you go and applie to the army retard, you would fit in quite nicely with the rest of them ignorant bitches.
  • Jion_WansuJion_Wansu Joined: Posts: 5,879
    Bring back @SoVi3t
  • drizzt360drizzt360 In the shadows I hide-ppd Joined: Posts: 7,008 ✭✭✭✭✭ OG
    I am coming to the realization that I have some major issues.

    Go see a therapist. Try a number of them and find someone you like and are comfortable with. You could go to a doctor/psychiatrist and find out if you do have some kind of mental whackness.

    when I die... may there be friends who will grieve for me,who will carry our shared joys and pains, who will carry my memory
    This is the immortality of the spirit, the ever-lingering legacy, the fuel of grief.
    but so, too, the fuel of faith
    -Drizzt Do'Urden

    "Hello fellow American. This you should vote me. I leave power. Good. Thank you, thank you. If you vote me, I'm hot. What? Taxes, they'll be lower... son. The Democratic vote is the right thing to do Philadelphia, so do."
  • WeeabooWeeaboo The Dream is dead. . . Joined: Posts: 1,384
    Is it possible that being introvert leads to depression & anxiety?
  • JavidJavid When will all this end? Joined: Posts: 1,980 ✭✭✭✭✭ OG
    Weeaboo wrote: »
    Is it possible that being introvert leads to depression & anxiety?

    That's kind of a loaded question. Anxiety and depression has no face/character really. It can affect all kinds of people, regardless of whether they are extroverted or introverted.

    ...

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  • RGKRGK 31st BEST in BC Joined: Posts: 151
    I hear voices. When i go into public i hear things.

    Kill this fucking I love My Little Pony so much it hurts
    Kill him now
    Drop this guy
    Dont let him get away
    Cut his dick off


    It gets worse the denser crowds are
    I especially hate mandarin because it involves a lot of shus and shis which sound to my ears like shoot

    Korean bothers me too

    Cantonese is ok


    I used to hear voices during white noide moments but thankfully that went away

    White noise ie. Running water. A fan. Dryer or washing machine


    Medication does not help

    I have a criminal record now because i did a home invasion at night because i thought people were after me and looking for me in a wooded neighbourhood i was unfamiliar with and nobody would answer their doors at night. The house i jumped through the window of everyone was awake and standing there but they were unwilling to answer the door but they happilly called the police on me and i got arrested because i hid in one of their closets.

    Ive thought of suicide multiple times
  • WeeabooWeeaboo The Dream is dead. . . Joined: Posts: 1,384
    Javid wrote: »
    Weeaboo wrote: »
    Is it possible that being introvert leads to depression & anxiety?

    That's kind of a loaded question. Anxiety and depression has no face/character really. It can affect all kinds of people, regardless of whether they are extroverted or introverted.

    Was never meant to be a loaded question, it was in a sense curiosity that got me to ask question, maybe I should ask it in different way.

    Have you ever dealt with anxiety or depression and whats your method of keeping it at bay?
  • JavidJavid When will all this end? Joined: Posts: 1,980 ✭✭✭✭✭ OG
    Weeaboo wrote: »
    Javid wrote: »
    Weeaboo wrote: »
    Is it possible that being introvert leads to depression & anxiety?

    That's kind of a loaded question. Anxiety and depression has no face/character really. It can affect all kinds of people, regardless of whether they are extroverted or introverted.

    Was never meant to be a loaded question, it was in a sense curiosity that got me to ask question, maybe I should ask it in different way.

    Have you ever dealt with anxiety or depression and whats your method of keeping it at bay?

    I think it's safe to say that we're all anxious or depressed to different degrees during different events that happen in life (loss of a loved one, losing your job, fear of failure, etc...). I would say for me personally the best thing is to talk about it(whether it's a friend, family member, or professional help) and not keep it in. This is especially true for guys(there is a reason male suicide rates are almost 3:1 now compared to women). Now there are different degrees when it comes to this stuff, but know that you're not alone and there are A LOT of other people that struggle just like you. Yeah you'll have good days and bad days and some people take meds to help them get through, but whatever you do don't keep it all in.

    You're going to have people that will tell you to "get over it" or your first world problems are nothing compared to others less fortunate and etc. Don't hold anything against these kind of people. We all react differently to different life situations, and what may come naturally or more easily to some to others they are developmental skills.

    Oh yeah, and exercise works wonders. Also don't give up on your hobbies!

    ...

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  • KashiyukasthighsKashiyukasthighs Joined: Posts: 994
    I wouldnt touch xanax if my life depended on it. I got prescribed quarter pills but decided to not go forward with that. Instead, i opted to buy canabis chocolate bars, and i can say that its helped me cope with my panic attacks extremely well. For me though
  • WeeabooWeeaboo The Dream is dead. . . Joined: Posts: 1,384
    @drizzt360

    You've probably already tried this before but, have you used weed as a substitution for Xanax?
  • dab00gdab00g Joined: Posts: 20,478
    Maybe he shouldn't be sleeping with knives

    Maybe it's good he isn't driving

    Damn sounds like you need a vacation in the looney bin and to be observed soon dude

    The weed he smokes is probably going to be low tier even though good weed is legally available. Hell there are some good places in napa valley

    But dude xanax is used by strippers, police men, public speakers

    The thing though is sounds like we are dealing with a very paranoid individual
  • drizzt360drizzt360 In the shadows I hide-ppd Joined: Posts: 7,008 ✭✭✭✭✭ OG
    I do smoke/use cannabis. Not much but I do. Sometimes it will help calm me down, other times it just makes me more anxious. Its a crap shoot. I know the whole indica vs sativa thing. If I get it from a dispensary I can get what I want. I like the chocolate bars but they're pricey and they go fast. They always seem to calm me down. They're 100mg candy bars, dark chocolate. I can also choose the strain (indica) that I want. If I get it on the streets I generally don't know what the strain is. I usually get it on the streets.
    when I die... may there be friends who will grieve for me,who will carry our shared joys and pains, who will carry my memory
    This is the immortality of the spirit, the ever-lingering legacy, the fuel of grief.
    but so, too, the fuel of faith
    -Drizzt Do'Urden

    "Hello fellow American. This you should vote me. I leave power. Good. Thank you, thank you. If you vote me, I'm hot. What? Taxes, they'll be lower... son. The Democratic vote is the right thing to do Philadelphia, so do."
  • KashiyukasthighsKashiyukasthighs Joined: Posts: 994
    I only use them for panic attacks so i always have a good supply of chocolate bars on hand
  • drizzt360drizzt360 In the shadows I hide-ppd Joined: Posts: 7,008 ✭✭✭✭✭ OG
    edited January 27
    My anxiety is pretty bad. I'm extremely anxious right now, just sitting in my room watching my favorite show. My hands are sweaty, I'm a bit shaky, I feel like I'm gonna jump outta my skin. I feel like I need to scream. I'm not having a panic attack, I'm just extremely anxious for no reason. It does not feel good. If I were to go out now, to a store or some shit, I would most likely have a panic attack. That's not a pretty sight.

    P.S. I took my meds at 11:30. Just waiting for them to kick in so I get a little relief.
    when I die... may there be friends who will grieve for me,who will carry our shared joys and pains, who will carry my memory
    This is the immortality of the spirit, the ever-lingering legacy, the fuel of grief.
    but so, too, the fuel of faith
    -Drizzt Do'Urden

    "Hello fellow American. This you should vote me. I leave power. Good. Thank you, thank you. If you vote me, I'm hot. What? Taxes, they'll be lower... son. The Democratic vote is the right thing to do Philadelphia, so do."
  • nikeSBstunna89nikeSBstunna89 WOLVES Joined: Posts: 1,493
    edited January 28
    @drizzt360 do those pills you take have a shitty comedown effect? I've been reading up on it and from what I understand the pills make you feel very very happy then make you come crashing right back down.
  • drizzt360drizzt360 In the shadows I hide-ppd Joined: Posts: 7,008 ✭✭✭✭✭ OG
    edited January 28
    No...I don't think so. I've been taking them for several years now so I don't really get the side effects anymore. I never noticed like a "hangover" kind of thing.

    I'll be honest. I fucked up on that shit most of last month and most of this month. I started taking way more than I was suppose to. I started taking it more like I'm prescribed instead of the low dose I set for myself. Now my body is craving the pill. I'm withdrawing really bad right now.

    Edit - I'm sick. I keep cramping up, I cant stand up without getting a super head rush, my anxiety is off the charts, blah, blah. All I need to do is take my .5mg Xanax and I will feel better in about 25 minutes. I can't take it yet. I have to set myself on a schedule so my body can adjust and I don't get super sick. So I take one at 11:30am and one at 9:30pm (later if I can manage). And it sucks. I cant stop looking at the clock, I'm just sitting here waiting for 11:30 to hit so I can take that shit and feel better.

    My mom was prescribed Xanax. I caution her not to take it but I think she does anyway. She is on a real low does and only takes it as needed.

    I will caution any of you the same. If you get prescribed Xanax don't take it. There are other pills that can help with anxiety and you don't get addicted to that shit. Take other options if possible or end up hooked.
    Post edited by drizzt360 on
    when I die... may there be friends who will grieve for me,who will carry our shared joys and pains, who will carry my memory
    This is the immortality of the spirit, the ever-lingering legacy, the fuel of grief.
    but so, too, the fuel of faith
    -Drizzt Do'Urden

    "Hello fellow American. This you should vote me. I leave power. Good. Thank you, thank you. If you vote me, I'm hot. What? Taxes, they'll be lower... son. The Democratic vote is the right thing to do Philadelphia, so do."
  • javertjavert 'sup Joined: Posts: 1,194
    Xanax very short life within the body is a big issue. It leaves you prey to a mood rollercoaster as its effect go up and down between one dose and the next. I have tried both Clonazepam and Alprazolam in the past and the last one effects are quite volatile. I went out of them within a month precisely because of not wanting to be tied to those.

    Not saying you cold turkey that shit, since benzos are the one med you don't just leave on a whim. Have you googled the Ashton Manual? It comes with some programmed switch to longer lasting benzos in order to get free from it. It won't be a nightmarish withdrawal of sleepless nights and panic attacks coming back with a vengeance but a longer more calm journey.
  • FrostyAUFrostyAU Lynx in your sinks Joined: Posts: 8,124
    I find a good way to sleep is codeine and beer, get some odd dreams sometimes but it's more comfortable for me than sleeping meds. Tramadol/Ultram/Zytram does the trick as well.

    Best way to deal with anxiety I've found is usually exercise. Running, boxing, throwing footballs 15-20 yards at a target over and over. Just something to focus on.
  • drizzt360drizzt360 In the shadows I hide-ppd Joined: Posts: 7,008 ✭✭✭✭✭ OG
    edited January 29
    I think most benzos (Benzodiazepine) have a short half life. I'm pretty sure all the medication I take has a pretty short half life. The only one I take that doesn't is Prozac. I've taken just about every benzo there is and they would help for a while. Eventually they all stopped helping and I got prescribed Xanax. Wish I would have researched that shit before I started taking it.

    Edit - Going without benzos was never an issue for me till Xanax. What I'm doing with my medication (drastically cutting my dose) is considered very dangerous.
    when I die... may there be friends who will grieve for me,who will carry our shared joys and pains, who will carry my memory
    This is the immortality of the spirit, the ever-lingering legacy, the fuel of grief.
    but so, too, the fuel of faith
    -Drizzt Do'Urden

    "Hello fellow American. This you should vote me. I leave power. Good. Thank you, thank you. If you vote me, I'm hot. What? Taxes, they'll be lower... son. The Democratic vote is the right thing to do Philadelphia, so do."
  • DramatixDramatix Could be better. Joined: Posts: 4,520
    I'm not too sure what happened or how to explain this, but in the past days, I've become much more depressed and angry than I usually am. I've grown more irritable, jaded, and outright bitter, and nowadays I don't even want to move or get out of bed. I tell myself to write/work on a creative writing portfolio/manuscript, practice singing or voice acting, or draw and gather the drawing and videos for my portfolio review at school, but I instead just distract myself with video games, YouTube videos, or actually trying to write a sentence before stopping out of frustration. Some days, I just want to "quit".

    Academically, I registered for classes late again and now I have to deal with a messed up schedule, but that's my fault for waiting until the semester ended to know whether or not I needed to take a course. For some reason at school, I become very tense and anxious - I constantly think because I'm not officially a part of a program or that I'm not as intelligent nor set with a career path, I don't belong there. I even isolate myself from classmates and basically everyone other than my club members - I go to class, find somewhere to be alone, go to practice, then home. I tell myself things like, "You're too stupid to be here", and that without a job or an education I have absolutely nothing going for myself nor to wake up to. If anything, I'm trying to hold myself to a higher standard to earn my degree and of course I don't want to be there forever, but I remain in school to say I'm doing with my life. As an artist, I look at my old work and see nothing but sheets of mediocrity that somehow earned me an Associate's. All I have under my belt are sketching and video-editing, and that isn't much.

    Socially, I did attempt dating again last August - the first guy ghosted me after the first date, the second was basically a cuddle session/hookup and rushed me out afterwards, and the last one was a guy who kept seeing other men yet would apologize to me while being conflicted with his bisexuality. He and I kept things casual but it was never going to work since he saw me as a friend and he had too much going on. All of it has made me bitter about romance and guarded all over again. Of course, I tell myself that I don't want to date until I become a "finished project" since I feel being a "work in progress" isn't acceptable, but I also don't have the energy to even socialize with people on that level nor reinvent myself to be acceptable.

    My therapist deemed me as "clinically depressed" and that I should go back to medication, but if anything I try to block out or ignore my depression. I tell myself that "employers, professors, and peers do not care that you're depressed, that no one is going to save you, and you're going to have to do it all on your own. No one cares."
    "Everyone in here has had someone who tried to convince them that they were sexually harassed, and you did not believe them because they were not cute."
  • Okazaki IIIOkazaki III PARRY THAT SHIT SON Joined: Posts: 681 ✭✭✭✭✭ OG
    ^It's been said before in this thread but a healthy lifestyle really helps. Eat healthy and exercise, and once you get into a routine reflect on your mood and the state of your depression. If there is no change whatsoever, I would talk to a medical expert again.

    @FrostyAU: You know that codeine is addictive, right? I'm sure you know what you're doing but I wouldn't recommend alcohol and opiate derivatives for long term use. Alcohol affects neural pathways in the brain, it's addictive only it takes a lot longer to evolve into an addiction. But you don't want to combo alcohol and opiate for years only to find out you can't function or sleep normally without either. Also, if you exercise a lot, I would expect your catecholamine levels to be lower during evening times, which should aid you when going sleep. Have you ever looked into that?

    @drizzt360: Those chocolate bars are expensive, yes, however you could make them yourself if you looked into it. If you get your preferred indica strain from the dispensary and then use that as an ingredient for home made chocolate then you will get better value for money I think, both in terms of dose amount and how you spread it out over the day.
  • KashiyukasthighsKashiyukasthighs Joined: Posts: 994
    I literally went through your exact thought process @dramatix, my depression lasted about 2 months and for the first time i did bad in school. Id suggest holding on tight cause its gonna be a rough ride. I didnt take any medication though, i have a distrust for pills.
  • DramatixDramatix Could be better. Joined: Posts: 4,520
    My mother recently joined a gym so I'll probably be going with her whenever I can. I didn't sign up myself because of school and work and I get my fitness two days a week from Tae Kwon Do practice. However, I do wish I went to the winter practices. Maybe that could've gotten me out of my funk, or at least diminished it. I could also start meditating for once or stretch more for Tae Kwon Do.
    "Everyone in here has had someone who tried to convince them that they were sexually harassed, and you did not believe them because they were not cute."
  • KashiyukasthighsKashiyukasthighs Joined: Posts: 994
    Good luck man, just keep in mind that your depression is temporary.
  • DramatixDramatix Could be better. Joined: Posts: 4,520
    Thank you. I received a raise at work today, so I suppose things are looking up.

    "Everyone in here has had someone who tried to convince them that they were sexually harassed, and you did not believe them because they were not cute."
  • FrostyAUFrostyAU Lynx in your sinks Joined: Posts: 8,124
    @Okazaki III Mostly I sleep fine, it was just a somewhat tongue-in-cheek surefire way to knock yourself out. It does work but you're right, it can create dependency issues.

    Also, I notice a bunch of guys have issues with work so just some basic shit your parents might not have told you,

    1. Be reliable - nothing else matters if you're unreliable, there is nothing else employers hate more than people not rocking up to shifts.
    2. Be compliant - just do what the person in charge says, doesn't matter if there is a better way of doing it, doesn't matter if it's crap, or shit or whatever, just do it. If things end up worse because of it, you're not the one to blame because you were just following orders, just be compliant. People that do what they're told without making shit difficult are good employees.
    3. Be positive - Even if you're not, just act like it. This isn't just work, this is everything, people like you more if you're positive. Even if you're not positive, act like you are so you don't turn people against you. There is a time and a place for letting stuff out, work is pretty much never it.
    4. Do yourself - Don't worry about others, don't worry about what they're doing or not doing, just focus on you. This is kind of like number 2, basically, if you're complaining about others it doesn't help your case at all, even if they're doing the wrong thing. Just let the boss be the boss and do your job.
    5. Stay out of the bosses way - Don't bring trivial shit to the boss, don't hassle the boss, especially in larger businesses there are a thousand and one other things they have on their mind. If it's important, they'll most likely speak to you, if you think you've done something wrong, don't preemptively try do something about it, just let it slide and if the boss has an issue they'll bring it to you. 9 times out of 10 they move onto something else and forget about it. You're the centre of your own world, but not everyone else's, it sometimes pays to remind yourself of that because things seem big to you, especially at work, that really are not in the grand scheme of things once you take a few steps back.
  • DramatixDramatix Could be better. Joined: Posts: 4,520
    I deactivated my Facebook and removed Instagram, Snapchat, and Messenger from my phone as well as the dating apps. I'm just going to isolate myself from people for a while, though it wouldn't make a difference whether I was present or not.
    "Everyone in here has had someone who tried to convince them that they were sexually harassed, and you did not believe them because they were not cute."
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    I see...
  • highluluhighlulu Joined: Posts: 3,832
    highlulu wrote: »
    came to the realization with myself over the weekend that i'm pretty damn depressed. My friend and roommate of nearly 3 years passed away last month and It's clear as day that i havn't really processed all of the emotions from it.

    I'm falling back into addictive behavior like smoking way more weed than i normally do, playing games for much longer and later hours than i used to and my sleep schedule is 100% fucked up because of it. Idk what i should do because my focus is slipping at work and I can tell that my bosses have noticed.

    3 weeks ago my second roommate passed away as well, this time it was in the room next to me, his GF waking me up at 10am in a panic about him not moving. sure enough he was cold and blue on the floor, i called 911 but it was too late, he had passed in his sleep painlessly. The last 3 weeks has been a waking nightmare of responsibilities while being evicted and cleaning his room. i feel so incredibly alone now having lost both of my roommates in less than a year, i still have these moments of overwhelming panic constantly.

    idk where i'm going with all this, just felt the need to tell someone or talk to someone about it
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  • WeeabooWeeaboo The Dream is dead. . . Joined: Posts: 1,384
    edited February 28
    @highlulu
    My condolences bro. . .

    ---

    So, I've been a good boy for the last 3 months. . . . until I bought a bottle of bourbon yesterday; specifically Evan Williams 1783. Some shit has been going on at work & outside of it. I can deal with it when its one or the other, but both? Nah B . . . :/
  • Da StunnaDa Stunna A True Paradox Joined: Posts: 1,020
    Good luck man, just keep in mind that your depression is temporary.
    Is it really, though?
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  • KashiyukasthighsKashiyukasthighs Joined: Posts: 994
    Yes. I've been through it. Unless you're one of those guys who get perma-stunned by depression because you have an overall greater mental disorder.
  • JackTenrac!JackTenrac! Dollar Yen - Level 304 Joined: Posts: 2,808
    edited March 2
    I think I need help. I started noticing that I’ve been looking at a lot of self help subjects on “still thinking you’re good enough” at work. I’ve been at my job for 2 years and someone, who just showed up in 9 months, is killing it over me and has taken over my role because “simply wasn’t as good as he was”. It’s chipping away at my ego a bit. I've litterally woke up in the morning angry and upset about it. It feels as if I can't be trusted. My performance review was lukewarm and I’m beginning to doubt my 10 years in my career really hard. I want to quit, but I'm too scared to bother, but I want to stay because I noticed the things that I saw in my review before and I figred that I should just fix them here and now. I'm trying to fix things and review with my manager, but I doubt I can take any more of him just talking and neglecting me when I feel like talking about my performance.
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  • Da StunnaDa Stunna A True Paradox Joined: Posts: 1,020
    Yes. I've been through it. Unless you're one of those guys who get perma-stunned by depression because you have an overall greater mental disorder.
    Eh, I've had it since about 2002/2003 or so.
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  • drizzt360drizzt360 In the shadows I hide-ppd Joined: Posts: 7,008 ✭✭✭✭✭ OG
    I need help...think ima stick myself in the mental hospital. Ime fucked.
    when I die... may there be friends who will grieve for me,who will carry our shared joys and pains, who will carry my memory
    This is the immortality of the spirit, the ever-lingering legacy, the fuel of grief.
    but so, too, the fuel of faith
    -Drizzt Do'Urden

    "Hello fellow American. This you should vote me. I leave power. Good. Thank you, thank you. If you vote me, I'm hot. What? Taxes, they'll be lower... son. The Democratic vote is the right thing to do Philadelphia, so do."