I played today and it started out alright, I handled my losses well(there were a lot) and tried to figure out what went wrong. I would lose from tick throw for example, and be able to at least point it out to myself. now i know. but later on in the day, it all went downhill. I didn't win a single game, not even a round. well that's ok, that can happen. but i wasn't learning anything, i didn't know what to do. not a clue. I dropped any combo that would have won at least one round which was the pinnacle of disappointment for me, considering the situation. but the real problem was that i was inclined to give up, i felt hopeless, like i could never figure out what's going wrong here. it got to the point where i rejected any move that i was about to use because it probably wouldn't be the right decision.
it hurts to lose and all but, that wasn't the worst problem. the problem was that i missed everything i tried for, and failed to figure out what i was doing wrong. that's the goal, but i couldn't do it. I'm gonna post some of the matches here soon. in case some one can help me. by then i can think about them. but why do my emotions get in the way like this? how can i stop them?