I play games because I want to hit the spotlight and in the recent month I’ve been able to gain the momentum to climb to master (Starcraft 2) and Diamond 1 (League of legend) and by momentum I mean I straight up outplayed everyone and got myself high without having to really give the best out of me and it nearly felt as if I had a force behind me matching me against weaker opponent or even matching me into free wins.
The issue with that is that I got myself into thinking that I finally hit a point where I was finally ‘‘big’’ and that I would easily become a new treat to the competitive scene in both respective games but I was so wrong.As soon as I climb on top of the mountain and look down to every opponent I had defeat I drop and I dropped so fast that I ignite flames that took a good chunk of my competitive soul and completely made me vunerable and It’s as if I have no longer the will to win.Every game I walk in is the same, I enter the ring with only the Defeat screen in mind. In Starcraft 2 (solo game) I feel so desperate when something go wrong and I lose myself into making more and more stupid mistake and it’s even worst in League of legends (5v5) where I find myself more and more salty everygame and more and more stressed by the fact that I might lose and a recurrent feeling that my team mates are all brain dead.
Now I am here…this week I’ve lost non stop.Not a single victory in Starcraft 2 and I got demoted real fast to lower league, around 60 lost and 5 wins in league of legends.
I’ll be honest with you…as a competitive player that won with ease for a while and that I am now sitting with a constant stress of losing…I am done. I am so done.
I wanted to post my story to know if others have experimented the same momentum and the drastic drop to lower league and if you guys had some tips for me because at the moment I mostly queue for a game with the sole idea that I’ll surrender as soon as possible.