I have a hard time finding a job anywhere, especially because I stole $300.00 out of a cash register when I worked at Long John Silvers. I tried to sue my employer for defamnation of character when called for a reference check, but the case was thrown out, and now I have it even worse because of that.
I try to find comfort with my Juggalo family, but despite their sayings on keeping it real, I still have the desire to want more. Even though Psychopathic records keep it underground and not be radio sellouts, I for some reason want to be a mainstream success, get a college degree and stay away from uncontrolled enviroments. No matter how hard I am, no matter how many times I do it, I still get scared of those people.
I find myself wanting to go and be in the limelight. I want to keep it real with my homies, but I want ho’s, cars, and money. What is wrong with me?
And if mainstream success is a big deal, is it too late for me?