hey josh. first i really want to let u know one thing, is i REALLY wish i’m seattle right now and say all this face to face. i’m not a guy with many words irl, but if there’s something thats need to be said i would say it.
you probably dont really care, but if u know me, i’m the kinda guy who isnt that serious when i type arrogant shit on the internet. i thought after coming down twice for the 2 tournaments, i was stupid enough to think that ppl would know what kind of person i am already, and that i was accepted. i dont actually mean that i DEMAND for a locked spot in the 5v5. i was also stupid enough to think after winning a regional that ppl would already know i’m good enough to AT LEAST make top 5, or at least agree that i’m good enough to PERHAPS make that spot…i guess i just want to feel blended in, using the wrong way.
and in all honesty, i did not explain this to anyone. but think about it in my situation, what happens if there’s really a team canada? Jinrai knows mr.wiz well, and he MIGHT get him to make a team which i have a very good chance to be representing. while i know the northwest team also wants me, and i DO want to represent the northwest because its fun playing with you guys, and i dont really like Jwong or other regions because of their attitude. beating them would make me feel good, because of him underestimating ppl and that there are scenes who can beat them. what will the canadians think of me if i am representing for the northwest instead of canada? if i get a confirmed spot, i can at least tell them nicely that northwest already took me to their team. u get what i mean josh? if mr.wiz creates a team canada, it will be too late for me to join team northwest, even if i make top 5 in the round robin. starting then, if i help out the northwest scene, every one in canada will be hating me, including my friends.
after ppl bombed me because of what i said, i just felt really shitty because they STILL think of me as an outsider talking shit to them. its like u talk shit to your friends, but u dont really mind if u know who they are. like i said, i thought ppl know what kind of guy i am, so i was being stupid. why would they want me as an enemy when i can HELP them beat Jwong and other top players in cali? Does it make them feel good if we face each other at evo? After that I just get too pissed and I would randomly talk shit on the threads, because of this reason of them not understanding my situation and hate on me. it also pisses me off when mickey d says just go on team canada, we dont want you. if you have read the previous posts of mine with the northwest, i was trying to reach you guys and be friends, sharing strategies, even mickey d talked hella shit in our thread out of no where, which he appologized after. i never see me as “mr. canada” and i’m different from northwest, its just me not getting accepted in the northwest makes me separate myself from you guys, and started to talk really random shit. so, i really hope u understand me being truthful about i never thought of us being in different regions, but as a whole.
after that, i dig myself into the northwest section again to see how are u guys doing. and i just saw mandel’s post about him putting money on thefuture or cole taking the tourney. if u are in my perspective, you would also probably go like “hey what about me? i won 2 tournaments from beating cole and thefuture but u dont mention about me taking the tourney”. so i just say stupid shit like “sure i’ll bet with you! i think i might have a chance of taking the tourney!” even tho i wasnt really going to bet with mandel, i wasnt serious. thats when everything went downhill from there.
as for mike…u know him well enough that he talks shit to everyone, stuff like he can beat me and poongko. before i even know him he was talking shit even tho we didnt provoke him in any way. therefore, i talked shit on mike’s skills, because he himself talk that much shit to people, i dont see why cant i do so to him. while it is true to mike, i didnt say that to other players right? i also never said any of the northwest player suck, i just think i have a good chance of taking the tournament so i say it out. again, not because of the difference between northwest and bc, i said it because of me trying to get acknowledged.
i said i accept nate douville’s match, because i thought he would go down to GW and money match me. but after he said go down to ellensburg to his place, i just ignored him if u check again. i was a little bit slow on replying you, because the reason is as follows:
- i cannot drive because my dad needs the car
- i might not get a ride back because the person who drove us down are also going to california on the way, i dont know if i should come down if i dont get a ride back to bc
- the 2 other asian guys other than yummy are not my homies, they are from another arcade who knows yummy and they are interested in participate the tournament. i really know them just THAT day and they are responsible of driving us back
- u DID scare them, which i saw it on their face, because they dont know what happened. but me and yummy just want to get home
- management did not follow us, and there wasnt a car waiting outside. we did however walk out the other door and walk down the block, and i called paul to come over so i can give him the GW game cards before he head home, then we walked back to our parked car like 3 blocks away and leave seattle.
sorry for the late reply on ur money match, i just didnt really want to take my time and look thru the entire thread for all the money match i missed. so i just said “i would accept any money match if i go down to GW”. so i pretty much acknowledged you.
and i dont know, probably cuz i was extremely tired, but i think most of the reason when i face you is because i dont know what i want to say. as for mike, i was disappointed that he didnt make it into semi’s, and i just feel sour when he got eliminated he ran up the stairs as if he was extremely sad. maybe i was wrong, but i dont have the heart to talk shit to him anymore when i saw that. there’s no point of making someone more upset than he already is, or if he really did feel upset. another reason is mike thinks he can beat a lot of people in sf4 irl which he cannot, but he firmly believes he’s capable of. that just makes me really disappointed towards him, and i just dont want to spend anymore of my time talking shit to him if nothing goes into his brain. i was expecting more from him, like palying him in the semi’s or finals. but there’s no reason for me to anymore.
as for the next time i come down, which will probably be the round robin, i will TRY to say all these to you but i dont talk much to strangers, because i’m just that kind of person who doesnt care much about other ppl other than sf4. however if u really want me to talk to u face to face, i can do so.