I was reading Penn Jillette’s book called God No! Last night and there was a very startling thing I read on there that is quite true for me and it is what I have needed. I have been unhappy with my life for quite sometime and alot of it has to due with where I live and the fact that I live in bumfuck religion ville. I have tried to say I am Agnostic for acouple of years and honestly I was just lying to myself and making myself more miserable. I am an Atheist, I have been Atheist for quite some time I just never wanted to come out and say it. As stupid as it sounds reading his book and him having a chapter in it where he basically says quit being a pussy and try to ride the pine is what I needed to hear. Although he obviously was not speaking directly to me it felt like he was. When I first read it I was honestly pissed off that he would call Agnostics that, call me that. Then I thought about what he was saying and thought about why I was so pissed off about it. The truth is I was still trying to keep alittle bit of that Christian side I spent 27 years of my life believing it.
Although I have never met or written the man I have immense respect for Penn. He does not bullshit you and when I finally sat down and watched his Bullshit episode on The Bible without turning it off out of anger, it sent my whole line of thinking into question. It seems stupid something like that can have such an affect on your life but it did. Especially since I live in Bibleville with seemingly no way out.
I know around here this will anger a great many people when I tell them that and that is something they will just have to deal with. I know most of you are wondering why I decided to type this and why you should give a shit. The answer is simple, I wanted to because it felt good and I had to start being myself, since I was really just miserable and you shouldn’t.
Also GoodMourning if you read this as far as your question about why I do not believe in Evolution I really have no answer. I think that was just part of me still trying to cling to something I knew I have no believed in in quite sometime. I would be interested in some good reading material if you have any though.