Alright, sadly, I cannot allow these sensational stretches of the truth and slandering of my name continue. Unfortunately, it looks like I am going to have to put my whole personal life on here and explain my actions.
I have been going through a lot of personal and potentially life threatening situations, one of which involves a damaged pituitary gland in my brain. Up until recently, I had no knowledge of this, and I had no knowledge of what could happen to individuals with compromised pituitary glands. The biggest effect of this issue is fluctuating hormone levels, primarily testosterone in males. I am currently undergoing an intense amount of HRT(Hormone Replacement Therapy) to stabilize my hormone levels. The average level of testosterone in males my age is between 600-700, two days prior to the tournament I was discovered to have a testosterone level of 193. My body was completely shutting down, or at least I felt that way. I was given a shot of an insane amount of Testosterone Cypionate directly into my blood stream, eventhough my doctor had warned me that this was probably not the best solution, as this will cause a massive spike in testosterone levels before leveling off. I was also told that I will no longer be able to have children, and that I will probably have to take these shots for the rest of my life. For a long time I had considered myself a leader in the Charlotte community, and I worked my ass off day in and day out for my community, hosting sesssions, recruiting new players, building team unity, and spending countless hours trying to become a better player myself. I had made a commitment to my team to appear at this tourney months prior, and eventhough I was in no condition to compete, I was there at least to coach and encourage my teammates. Mario “TCO” Smith did very well and I am proud of him:)
I apologize deeply for my actions that day and I have personally taken myself out of tournament competition indefinitely. I am always real with everyone that I deal with, and the fighting game scene is no exception, so I will even go a step further.
About my first match with Guerilla S.: I have never beaten a Steve or Law player in a set, and I was in no condition to do so on that day, so sadly I did indeed throw the entire fight, I did not go down 2-0 and then decide to do so, I threw it from the beginning. My defensive tactics do not work on those characters and Guerilla gave me a pretty good beating during casuals at Final Round that has stuck with me to this very day. My Zafina isn’t equipped to go toe to toe with his Steve or Steve in general, I knew it, so I just said f*ck it. It is a very despicable act indeed. I was there to coach, not to compete. Zafina vs. Steve or Law=Loss. My skill level isn’t high enough to offset the fact that Zafina starts out a severe disadvantage against those characters. Guerilla is a solid player, and on top of that he uses Steve, a character that I just cannot defeat, and then on top of that I had to face him in the first round. Is that what you wanted to hear? I am scared of GUERILLA S’s style of play and his STEVE. I can’t be any more honest than that. It takes serious balls to say that on a public forum full of males.
About my match against 7th Fonon and the whole fallout: By the time I reached 7th Fonon I was basically just done and he was a solid player. I spent most of my time in the losers bracket just joking around, I knew eventually I would run into someone that was not just there to have fun, and 7th Fonon just happened to be the guy. I was legitamately trying against him, and he was giving me a hard time, the match did not reach its conclusion. I honestly feel like I would have won this match, it was close and either one of us had the potential to win. I was indeed frustrated, my iron clad defense and patience had nearly failed me, I wasn’t punishing properly, and I had magically lost the ability to break routine throws, I was having trouble against someone that I was more than capable of defeating. This was perhaps the only match that I was legitimately trying to win.
I have fully explained my actions, and given you insight as to what was going on inside my head, and I have done so publicly, there is nothing more that I can say and nothing more that I can do. I am working hard to resolve my personal issues, If you wish to join Orochi_Negro in turning your back on me I understand. If you want to trash me on forums as some of you already have than that is fine. I think it is funny that some individuals try to be your best friend in front of your face, and then quickly jump on the forums and facebook as soon as you leave. If I have a problem with someone I address it with the individual face to face. I will live to fight another day, I will keep working hard every day, I will pray every single day, none of you have any idea what it is like to be me or what it is like to be in my shoes. Let me be the first to tell you that it sure as hell isn’t easy. I have to live with the fact that I may soon be in a wheelchair and unable to do much of anything if my treatment fails. I am going to assume that most of you have never been in that situation, so please understand that this is a very difficult time for me. I will indeed find out who my true friends are during this period, and I will also find out how many of you are actually assholes in disguise.
If you choose to turn your back on me that is fine, I expect most of you to do so because that is what people do nowadays. We live in a society that is quick to condemn and hate(Casey Anthony for example). I am just asking that you do not view the other Charlotte area players any differently, TCO and Irish Bear have worked very hard to get better, I have watched them grow and it is time for them to really shine. Please welcome them back to EZ and any other sessions in the RDU area.
That is THE TRUTH from the horses mouth
God Bless, pray for me, you can hate me now.