I know how you feel. My granddad died last year, and even though he was sick for a while and we all saw it coming, it hurt like hell. Condolences man. You’ll find the strength to get through.
And some advice for Stocky during the ban - I’ll say it again: looking at the girls you post here, I can only assume the girls you fuck in real life look like they have Pokemon waiting in their pussies to jump out. If you’re eating one out and hear “HERE COMES A NEW CHALLENGER!”, just duck.