Right now, I’m trying to get into the video games industry now that I have a bit more experience. I was OK with the life I had before except I hated my job. So I made some sacrifices to get to where I am now, and I find that I’m still struggling to reach my goal.
Basically, all I want is the life I had before:
Driving my own car (it’s currently parked indefinitely)
But with the added bonus of making games for a living. I’m not interested in living glamorously; I tell myself that if I ended up with millions of dollars, I wouldn’t change my lifestyle because I don’t see the need to live fancier. I don’t want to one-up anybody, and I don’t think it’s wise to send a message to the world. I would feel more secure knowing that I’d be OK if my livelihood took a dive.
I’m at a point in my life where all the people I grew up with are married and have kids, but I have nothing like that. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t lonely, but a relationship is the least of my worries. My belief is that you should have your personal shit in order before getting involved in someone else’s life so that you don’t burden them with your mess on top of whatever they’re dealing with. We spend a good deal of our lives making money one way or another, so I think it’s important to spend that time doing something you truly enjoy, rather than pulling a Homer Simpson and getting a job merely as a means to support your family. My old friends have families of their own now, but I wonder if their lives were in an acceptable order before taking that step.
tl;dr version: I’m in Dirzzt’s position: 32 and don’t have everything together.