Hello there, this is my first post on SRK. I’ve been lurking for quite awhile, pretty much nervous to join this site due to the rampant territorial attitude some of you have with new users. I’ve seen many forums do this, whether they have to do with street or drag racing, model and figurine collectors or even forums about fanart.
The current year users will always be considered scum.
So I beseech you, as scum to the established userbase, to hear me out before I have to wait 5-6 months to post this. I wish I had more to offer you, but I need your help more than ever.
Street Fighter IV is coming. There is a calling in my soul deeply reaching into me that I haven’t felt for nearly a decade. My fingers twitch, and I remember the cheering, the booing, the slaps on my back after beating a rival at the local arcades.
I begin to remember the long car trips just to go to that one arcade with that one cabinet that nobody else has packed with way too many people in the car and no money for food and drinks when we got there because we spent it all on quarters.
I see people who have never touched, or even seen Street Fighter outside of Youtube poops and internet meme’s talking about how to do QCF+P’s and HCB+K’s. I remember a time when people played real fighting games.
Unlike them, unlike so many returning to the game though, I never really left. I’ve been playing these games on my laptop on emulation, or on my old Dreamcast and Saturn or modded PS2 for years now. I’ve gone back home and seen my old buddies and challenged them at a spar at the random classic. I’ve been watching Youtube clips of combos and ultras and just drooling in anticipation for the next fighter.
…yet I suck.
Really, I’m just terrible. I pick up the controller, and I get stomped by the computer on default difficulties without spamming ultra moves to save my life. I challenge new kids in the arcades who don’t know the difference between a Hadouken and a Sonic Boom and I get defeated. I get on HD Remix psyched to play classic SF with real people again, and I can’t win a single match.
I get frustrated with the gamepad, or the arcade stick being stuck, or some random thing. My friends keep saying maybe if I get a real arcade pad it’ll come back to me, but deep inside I know. I just suck.
Despite playing fighters that people have never heard of. Spending all my free time on Guilty Gear XX when I was deployed in Iraq. Memorizing every single special move in Street Fighter, I can still get killed by someone spamming jabs. I see people do things in HD Remix I can’t even get close to countering. It’s not even just relearning things like Chun-li’s new horrible arcing SBK, I literally just have no game.
I lose to players who honestly make mistakes I can see myself capitalizing. I can visualize the proper move in my head. But I can’t execute. I see him jumping at me, hit roundhouse kick as he comes in! I whiffed it! Again, I’m hit. How did he trip me as I got up? I know this shit, I KNOW this game… why? Why am I unable to compete at something so dear to my heart?
Why can’t I go to the arcade and pop in a quarter into SF2T and beat the first computer controlled opponent? Why after playing Guilty Gear XX for years, I still can’t pull a roman cancel combo accurately? Is there no hope for me? There are so many people playing this game who have never once opened a FAQ on it in their life, yet I’ve buried my nose in them for hours and when it comes to actually playing… I just can’t hack it.
I can beat scrubs at the arcade no problem. I can jump into a machine and so my knowledge of fireballs, special moves and supers. I got every single one encoded on my brain since 94.
So why do I suck? Is my future as a gamer finished? I see these awesome players racking up ratings on HD Remix, and I should be there with them. I should not be where I 'm at. I’m the guy in my neighborhood who printed and copied Sirlin’s “Playing to Win” article to my circle of friends. I’m the one with the spirit of Street Fighter so engraved into my soul 've dreamnt about it.
What is wrong with me? Should I just give up? I would kill for a mentor, a guide. Someone who can get on live and just wake me out of this stupor. Maybe if I could see, hear and understand what I’ve been missing. You know, like someone sitting next to you in the passenger seat and goes “Why do you hold the steering wheel like that?” or “No wonder you turn so sharp, you’re resting your left foot on the clutch.”
Maybe I’m missing something, but I’ve been missing it for way too damn long. It’s been too many years. With SF4 right around the corner, I really don’t want to hang it all up. I looked at my online cart on a Cali based website and looked at my Mad Catz Street Fighter Tournament Fightstick preorder, and I hovered over the cancellation button for 10m before writing this. Is it worth it? Should I really give this another go?